Hopeless

  
Please take a moment to think about how you'd feel if you suddenly lost your job and home and perhaps even a few loved ones and had no family whom you could turn to for help. Scary to think about, isn't it? But there is an important reason why I am asking this of you, so please care to feel this. . .



Please take a moment to think about how you'd feel if you suddenly lost your job, home and perhaps even a few loved ones and had no family or friends whom you could turn to for help. Scary to even think about, isn't it? But please care to feel this. . .
  You worked hard all your life and had reached a point where you owned your own business and a nice country home, but it’s all suddenly gone, through no fault of your own. You’ve also just lost a few loved ones and you have no family, whom you can turn to for help.
   Fear grips you as you realize that you suddenly have no income and nothing but your car to sleep in. Your homeless situation, on top of the losses, is almost too much to bear.
   A few weeks go by and you've just used your last dollars purchasing yet another loaf of bread and jar of peanut butter. You finally do what you've been dreading - you call welfare, but are told that “there is no help for you because you have no physical address, are not elderly or physically or mentally disabled and don’t have young children." They carelessly cast you aside.
  You don't qualify for unemployment because you had been self employed. You call 211 and they give you the number to a hotline where you are told that a particular homeless shelter is your only option, but they are full. You go to another one, a few days later, and don’t feel safe there. You know that you can’t handle anymore pain than what you already carry, so you decide that your car is the safest place to live.
   You call the Salvation Army, Corpus Christy, a Paster Care Center...etc. but the only one who returns your calls, and doesn’t refer you to some other place that ends up being a dead end, says that there is nothing they can do for you “because you are already homeless and do not have a job.” Your distress is being compounded by being intensely interrogated, humiliated and disbelieved by the agencies you turn to for help.
   You periodically pick up cans of food at food pantrys, which rarely have healthy food and are in short supply because of all the people who take food from them, in order to SAVE their own money instead of leaving it for those who have none. And they can not help you with your cell phone or storage payments, which would prevent you from losing the rest of your belongings. They don't give you money because they think you are a thief, drug addict or some sort of criminal.
  You’ve been trying to get work, but now that you are in such a state of need, people either hire someone else or offer a small fraction of what you used to get paid. You feel how heartless and cruel this is, but they excuse it by saying, “That's just business!”
   You desperately grab for any job you can get, but the economy is bad, jobs are hard to find and most of them deliver unhealthy levels of sexual harassment and mental abuse. What’s left of your pride rises to fight against it and either gets fired or quits.
   You feel more desperate, overwhelmed and scared than you ever thought a human being could feel. Your situation is starting to feel hopeless. There seems no way out.
   You often have no money to wash the sets of clothes you now wear for three or four days in a row. The rushed sink-baths you take in garage station rest rooms are not enough to eliminate your BO, but a few months have now gone by and you’ve stopped even noticing.
  When you’re not under the security cameras in Wal-Mart parking lots you have to keep moving or driving around because when you linger in one place for too long you are often approached by ill intending people.
   Sometimes you run out of the gas you need, in order to keep on the move, because you only get $25 worth of gas from the food pantry that you are only allowed to visit once a month. You sneak to other pantries and churches, in order to get more of what you need, and feel guilty about it.
    You’re not getting the exercise you need and your car is becoming a stinky mess, but you have become too overwhelmed and sick and tired to do anything about it. You often feel numb and confused and do not understand what is wrong with you. Surviving each day takes all the energy you have.
   You often cry yourself to sleep praying for help. But each day rolls into a few more months, and STILL, no real help is there for you. Your faith begins to stagger. You are feeling too uncared for by your fellow human beings and this hurts so unbearably that its breaking what's left of your aching heart.
   You repeatedly go to almost everyone you used to know and ask for help, but most of them don’t trust you, for reasons that you do not understand, and the rest of them look down on you and find reasons to not have to help. Most of them direct  you to other people or agencies who do the same. Nobody seems to care anymore. You do not deserve this. You were a kind and caring human being. You’d never have let this happen to anyone you knew. The only offers you get for places to live are in unhealthy situations and you do not understand why you are surrounded by people who behave in ways that are so rude and heartless. You start losing trust in humanity. The little bits of help you get are barely enough to survive on and never enough to help you climb back onto your feet.
    A few years go by and you wonder how you’ve survived this long and if you’ll ever be able to recover, even if the opportunity were to present itself.
Sometimes you feel numb. Sometimes you feel sad.
Sometimes you give up, because you’re so tired and mad.
You often feel scared and don’t know what to do -
Overwhelmed by the pain of all you're going through.
  
You wonder why this is happening to you, because you don’t remember being a witness to technological crimes against humanity. . .and do not realize that you are being covertly targeted  - that every aspect of your life is being intentionally sabotaged and destroyed. You may eventually realize it, but its already too late. You’re sinking into the trenches of hopeless despair and there is no way out - no one to turn to for help.


 
   This is a difficult reality to look at, isn't it? It’s hard to read let alone imagine being in this situation. This article is based on a true story and I’m sharing it because we need to know that things like this are happening to uncountable numbers of decent people. It doesn't seem like this can be happening in places like the USA. But unfortunately it is and will continue until something is done to prevent it - until more people become aware of the covert operations that are targeting humanity.

I am “nothing but a worthless waif”
Who dares to pause in judgment’s way.
But Angels from beyond the sky
Reach down to hold me while I cry.
THEY know.




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Old version of this article:

   You worked hard all your life and had purchased a nice home of your own, but it’s all suddenly gone, through no fault of yours. You have no family left and your closest friends have recently died.  Fear grips you as you realize that you are completely on your own and have nothing left but your car to sleep in. 
   You've never had to ask for help before and feel mortified to be reaching a point where you have no other choice. This, on top of all your personal losses, is almost too overwhelming to bear. You feel numb with shock.
   A few weeks go by and you've just used your last few dollars purchasing yet another loaf of bread and jar of peanut butter. You finally do what you've been dreading - you call welfare, but are told that “there is no help for you because you have no physical address." You don't qualify for unemployment because you had been self employed. You call 211 and they give you the number to a homeless hot line where you are told that a homeless shelter is your only option, IF they have room for you.
   The thought of a homeless shelter terrifies you and brings on visions of being surrounded by crowds of angry drug addicts, criminals and raging alcoholics who may hurt you. . .and you know you can’t handle anymore pain, because you’ve already been through too much. So, you continue living in your car and periodically pick up cans of food at soup kitchens, which are in short supply because of all the people who take food from them, in order to save their own money instead of leaving it for those who have none. But they can not help you in any other way - they can't pay your cell phone bill or storage payment, which would prevent you from losing the rest of your belongings. They have no showers for you to use. They don't give you money because they fear you might be a thief, addict or some sort of criminal, even though you honestly aren't any of these things and your getting tired of being interrogated and humiliated by them.
  You have been trying to get more work, but now that you are in such a state of need, people either hire someone else or offer a small fraction of what you used to get  for the same quality of work.. You feel how heartless and cruel this is, but they excuse it by saying, “That's just business!”
   You desperately grab for any other job you can get, but the economy is bad. Jobs are hard to find. And now that you are in this situation the only ones you get deliver unhealthy levels of sexual harassment and other types of abuse. What’s left of your pride rises to fight against it and either gets fired or quits.
   There seems no way out of your situation. You feel more desperate and scared than you ever thought a human being could feel, especially in the USA. Hopelessness starts seeping into your fear.
   You have no money to wash the sets of clothes you now wear for three or four days in a row. The rushed sink-baths you take in garage station restrooms are not enough to eliminate your BO, but a few months have now gone by and you have stopped even noticing.
  When you’re not under the security cameras in Wal-Mart parking lots you have to keep moving or driving around because when you linger in one place for too long you are often approached by ill intending people who want to take advantage of the vulnerable situation you’re obviously in. Sometimes you run out of the gas you need, in order to keep on the move, because you only get $25 worth of gas from the food pantry that you are only allowed to visit once a month. You sneak to other pantries, in order to get more of what you need, and feel guilty about it.
    You’re not getting the exercise you need and your car is becoming a stinky mess, but you have become too overwhelmed and tired to do anything about it. Surviving each day takes all the energy you have left.
   You often cry yourself to sleep praying for God to help you. But each day rolls into a few more weeks, and STILL, no real help is there for you. Even your own children have turned their backs on you. Your faith begins to stagger. You are feeling too uncared for and unloved by your fellow human beings and this hurts so unbearably that its breaking what's left of your aching heart.
   You hit a point where you resign to checking out a homeless shelter and your worst fears begin to race into reality. So, you bolt and become more content with just living in your car although the night temperatures are now dipping into the single digits.
   You ask for help over and over again, but most people don’t  trust you, just because you’re living in your car, and the rest of them look down on you instead of helping. Nobody seems to really care.
  The little bits of help you get are barely enough to survive on and never enough to get a safe place to live and start rebuilding your life.

   A few years go by and you wonder how you’ve survived this long and if you will ever be able to recover from what homelessness has done to you on top of the devastation that put you there.


Sometimes you feel numb. Sometimes you feel sad.
Sometimes you give up, because you’re so tired and mad.
You often feel scared and don’t know what to do -
Overwhelmed by the pain of all you're going through.

   Just when you think things can't get any worse you suddenly start getting physically ill. Sharp pains pierce through your head. Your hearing and eye sight are beginning to fail you. You sometimes feel dizzy and nauseous and feverish. You joints ache. Your hair is starting to fall out. Each day is worse than the day before. Fear grips you harder than it ever has. You know the end is approaching, and you are not afraid to die, but you can't bear to have it happen like this and with no one there to care. 

   Prior to your homeless plight you had deeply needed time to recover from your losses. You had needed a SAFE place to live and time to pull yourself back together - you had needed the type of place that does not exist for people who have no money and no family who can be there for them. You are trapped in the trenches of poverty and are giving up on the hope of ever getting the chance to recover. Every day feels like month and every month - a year. There is no beacon of light shining at the end of the road. You still have faith in God, but you wonder why he/she is not there for you. You start doubting yourself - wondering what you did to deserve this. And you can't remember, because your mind feels so numb.
   The sad truth is that you are a Primary Targeted Individual, but do not know it yet. Your losses were manipulated by the perpetrators who target you. Your jobs were sneakily sabotaged by criminal gang stalkers, who are professional members of your own community.  People had bothered you everywhere you went, because you were under constant satellite surveillance and were being gang stalked. The illness you feel is the result of harmful intrusions from remote Directed Energy Weapons, which are secretly built into satellites and are aimed at you and many others as an evil population control program. Those who really did love you have been targeted also, and brainwashed into turning away from you. But you don't realize this and the pain of their rejections  cut deep into your heart. 
    You are a victim of covert targeting. When you find out it, its too late. Nobody will listen to or believe you. They all think you are just insane or "mentally ill". Most of humanity is not aware of what is happening. And you get attacked/tortured with electronic laser weapons each time you try to tell people the truth.


This is a difficult reality to look at, isn't it? It’s hard to read let alone imagine being this person. It doesn't seem like this can happen in the USA. But unfortunately it REALLY is happening.
    This article is based on a true story. Actually the full Truth is much worse than this. But I didn't want to put you through all of it. I just want you to know that things like this really are happening to good decent people. . .possibly thousands of people, right now, at this point in time.


 PLEASE educate yourself on this crisis and  help prevent people from experiencing this sort of torture. Please.


The Waif
by Wisdom

I am “nothing but a worthless waif”
Who dares to pause in judgment’s way
But Angels from beyond the sky
Reach down to hold me while I cry.
THEY know.